To think I spent so much time, years, with you for it all to amount to nothing. 

I wish you would have been man enough to be honest with me about what was really going on. 

I wish I would have been smart enough to see through the foggy haze. I should have listened to your parent’s warning.

I wish I could have been more emotionally ready for my husband, but instead he had to help me get over you. 

I wish your family wasn’t so darn wonderful. 

Although I can’t say it was time wasted because I learned SO much, I can say it was ridiculously easy to fall in love with my husband after you. 

I used to miss something we apparently never even had. How stupid was I?

My biggest regret is giving so much of myself to you. You didn’t deserve it.

Behind the ‘relationship’, were we even friends? Classmates sure, but friends? Three years of ‘friendship’ and one year later I’m questioning everything. But I’ll never know because I can guarantee you don’t know the answer to that either.

I hope you learned from whatever we had and treat your next lady accordingly. Be upfront and honest with her. Be blunt. “An honest answer is like a kiss on the lips.” Provers 24:26

I would have wasted so much more of my time waiting for you if it wasn’t for God’s divine intervention. You were supposed to be my date to the wedding where I met my husband. 

Only after time have I been able to see the red flags, the warnings, the roughness of it all… dang

But…. I really do wish you well. I hope you are happy, I hope you can love yourself, and then love some lady properly. I hope that you get to accomplish everything you want in life. I hope that one day you will look back and everything will click for you. Until then…. thanks for letting me go. 

xoxo

We LOVE because He first loved us! 

I KNOW that Valentine’s is such a touchy subject. 

The single people hate it, the taken people love it….. I get it I really do. I remember in high school I was a part of the anti-valentines day dinner almost every year, where a group of us singles would go to dinner together! :) 

But this year I am MARRIED, so happy, and ridiculously in love with my husband! I want to shout out to the world that he went above and beyond this year for Valentine’s :) But… I also want to be sensitive and respect those who might not want to hear it….  

I TOTALLY agree that you shouldn’t show your significant other ‘love’ just today. That Valentine’s is ‘made up’ and is a wastefully holiday. BUT who doesn’t love getting pampered and shown extra love? (if you say ‘you’, you are lying) 

So… if you want to read what the hubs did… go ahead and click ‘read more’ otherwise, I hope you have a FABULOUS Valentine’s day!! Enjoy all the sweet treats around you! 

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When you get married, just go ahead and resolve yall will NOT PLAY GAMES. I’m not talking about Monopoly or Apples to Apples… I’m talking about mind games. IT GETS YOU NOWHERE. 

Playing the “who can be the most cold hearted” game SUCKS. For all of those involved. No one likes to be hurt by the one they love, nor do they ever feel good about getting ‘revenge’. At the end of the day, playing mind games has put more and more distance between both of you…. waiting for  someone to “cave in” can be exhausting. Tell me, would you truly appreciate an apology if you knew you had bullied your spouse into saying it? 

I am SO thankful that Brian and I decided on this before we got married. I am appreciative of our honesty and bluntness when it comes to those not so peachy days. A potentially wasted day can be saved by just saying “I’m not going to play games with you. I’m sorry. I love you.” 

Love is better shown than spoken. 

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Man I needed to hear that. Thank you LORD for loving me! Not for who I’m going to be, but who I am. Praise be to you God!

I came to a stunning realization today: Just because YOU are willing to do something for someone else when they aren’t willing to do the same thing for you,  DOES NOT mean they are a bad person, or don’t love you equally. Love languages are RADICALLY different for everyone. If you are willing to go the extra mile in your life…then kudos for you! That is awesome and I’m sure you are a very very nice person. BUT if the people around you fall short of the expectations you hold for yourself, does that really make them a horrible person? Or does that leave you feeling unloved and underappreciated? 

I used to get so mad, hurt and frustrated when I would go above and beyond for someone and they wouldn’t give me the same consideration back for a dollar. I would ask myself over and over again why I would do nice things, or try so hard…. I realized today that it was always only for selfish gain. I would perform with strings attached. That is the WRONG way to display the Gospel. Jesus Christ did not die on the blood stained cross to get something FROM us, but to give something to us. We should live our lives like Christ, being nice for the sake of being nice, not so the world will be nice back to us. 

Food for thought, the Bible challenges us to NEVER stop doing good (Galatians 6:9) and to be imitators of Christ (Ephesians 5:1)… these song lyrics sum up my prayer today “Heal my heart and make it clean, Open up my eyes to the things unseen, show me how to love like You have loved me..”

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More often than I would like to admit, I find myself swimming in a sea of scars; surrounded by pain, regret and bad memories. Not physical scars, but emotional wounds that are deep in my soul from my previous life before Christ. I will evaluate each one remembering why it was there, who put it there and what I did to get myself in that situation. Each scar is a reminder of how I was frantically running from the Lord in my own chaotic attempt to make it through this life.

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Man, oh man… You would think reaching a compromise with someone you love is easy. 50/50 everyone wins right? I’m learning that even in a marriage, compromise is still hard. It all boils down to pride. The devil constantly whispers lies telling you how YOUR opinion matters more, and YOU deserve this, or better yet, you aren’t loved unless you get YOUR way. THIS IS FALSE There is nothing wrong with having your own opinion, there is nothing wrong with voicing your opinion, but at the end of the day, when you sit down with your husband you start to think… I’m holding the hands that work hard every day to provide for me…. I am sitting under a roof that he not only provided, but constantly works to keep for his family…I am full after a meal that he helped cook…I am staring into the same eyes I said my vows to…I am having a discussion with a man who doesn’t want to control me or force his opinion, but reach a happy medium with me….How in the world can I put my wants before his? I will gladly compromise, happily compromise if it means my best friend, my favorite answered prayer is happy and satisfied with our life together. Is this being weak? No. This is true love.